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To my, dearest kent, Hi ( wala ng intro intro boi) , I know sa sarili ko na di mo gid ko ma gustohan, pero may ara gid sang thoughts sa akon utak, nga di ko ma punggan, nga naga asa gid ko nga gusto mo man ko maski hindi. kay assuming man ko, bal an ko man nga hindi mo gid ko ma gustohan kay amo ko sina nga pag kababae (BWAHHAHAHHAHAH)kag maramdaman ko man sa mga ginapahiwatig mo sa mga chat kag kung paano ka mag Iwas sa akon sa personal. Pero, kung di mo naman gid ko gusto ihambal gud sa akon kay naga isip ko nga gusto mo man ko kay permi ta mag eye contact, bal an ko man assuming ko sa part nga na pero ngaman gina tan aw mo ko haw?? mukha ba akong clown?? pero okay lang man kung pag tan aw mo sa akon daw clown kay atleast napapasaya kita, “eyyyyy” joke lang. Boom mag english na siya in 123......go Do you know, (syempre hindi) when I realized that I have no chance of being liked by you, I still prayed, and prayed to God, and hoped, that God will change faith and give you to me, na sana ang tadhana dalhin ka sa akin na sana kita nalang ang para sa isat isa, I know it sounds cringe but that’s what comes to my mind every prayers I prayed you were included. At first i was being desperate of being loved, but liking you changed my mind, (“why??”)because there were boys who tried to win me over i thought that talking to them would change my perspective of you, I tried to forget about you, pero wala talaga silang palag sayo boi (kay wala gani ko pag asa nangita ko iban nga may gusto sa akin, self aware kasi yan siya) I thought kung may maka storya ko nga iban di na tika ma gustohan, pero wala, nagdugay nalang hindi gihapon sila makapantay simo. my love for you only grew deeper. First it was me liking you, then it changed in to me loving you, because di kita ma compare sa kanila iba ka sa kanila and that makes you more special than anyone to me. You are the only man who made me feel this way, i was a certified man hater that’s what they always say about me, I despise men and how they think about themselves i hate that they feel superior arround women, I hate them because of past relationships and trauma from my family(over sharing final boss) pero ikaw i see peace in you, you’re the reason I believe that love actually exist, you are the peace that I seek everyday, kung ma kita taka kompleto na adlaw ko. (over naman yan siya uy pero truth yan) tapos gubaon lang ni adrian and hambalon niya ko nga may bago ka naman daw crush, ( diwow:( ) i don’t really care (awtss napaka liar naman)if may bago ka na gusto I just want to admire you kahit di mo ko ma gustohan ever. ( dugay ko na tanggap pero sakit gihapon haha) Sa sobra ko ka papansin sa imo pag grade 10, sa role play gid ko nag pa huya huya para lang ma pansin mo ko feel ko ma alala mo man guro to kay ako na alala ko to, it was ingraved in my mind like a memory i will never forget. I will never forget that memory because first time taka na kita nag kadlaw, sa akon pagid happy gid ko sito nag himo himo pako nga gusto ko si jierson, pero pang tabon lang gid to sa feelings ko sa imo para di ka nila sunlogon kung ma bal an nila kay feel ko abi sito nga time huyaon ka so di tika ma joke haha nonchalant siya, and daw di kaman open sa mga naka gusto sa imo feel ko abi hate mo ko tapos sa time pagid sito ka group kamo ni wamie, tapos crush niya pagid ka so gina kilig kilig siya tapos di niya pagid bal and crush taka so hipos nalang ko. (Ga overshare nako pero it’s okay lang di ka naman gusto ni wamie kay inlove nato siya kaayo sa bibi niya) Dati maalala ko pa nga grabe ang envy ko kay monda pag grade nine, kay gin add mo siya facebook wala siya kabalo nga gusto gusto taka sito nga time, tapos hambal niya pa sakon nga type niya daw ka, nag iyak pa ako noon patago, amo to na sira confidence ko kay gwapa gud to siya tapos ako mukhang buang, pero wala ko man siya na hate never ko ma hate si monda dahil sa lalaki dahil baby ko yun siya. And tung na bal an ko nga mga pareho gali sa iya type mo, (syempre way ko kabalo nga iban gali type mo amo lang to na isip ko) nag ngita gid ko paraan para maging gwapa and pag grade 11 abi ko magka pag asa na pero may gusto ka gali kay wamie tapos gusto niya pud ka(haha) biglang na depressed ang tao nato ( hay nako ka cringe) tapos naga away pagid to sila ni louie so abi ko maging kamo, tapos na dula ila away tapos naging okay sila kaya abi ko nag move on kana sa kay wamie kay okay naman sila, tapos way nako naka bati sang news about sa imo so abi ko pwede na. So gin chat taka abi ko okay na pwede na pero na bal an ko may jade kana gali (haha aray ko po) pero I was happy for you that time kay atleast you found someone that you like, I was genuinely happy, because I knew that you were. Then came grade 12 i said to myself nga hindi nako mag ka gusto sa kahit sino, pero bigla sila mag hambal nga wala nadaw kamo ni jade even I, was shock but i was so happy that time I know I was not supposed to feel that way because I know you were hurting, pero I’m sorry ha, I was happy because I thought to myself may pag asa na pero hangang ngayon pala wala parin pala and that is okay because your feelings are valid no need to force yourself to like me because that comes naturally and I accept what is given to me even if it hurts me very deeply because this is life you should not expect everything to come your way because it does not. YEARNING FOR YOUR LOVE SINCE 2022!!!!!!! The more I tried to not like you, the more i realized how much i actually do. You were the first boy who made me rethink my life decisions you made ma rethink my perceptions in life (haha) bal an mo gud na realize ko sa sarili ko nga sa sobra ko nga pagka attach sa imo nahambal ko sa sarili ko nga di nalang ko mag asawa sunod kung di malang ikaw ( diba super oa tapos cringe ko sa part na yan I know) naga isip nako para sa future ta daw may katok haha ambot ah kalahuya, pero gusto ko lang ni ipa balo tanan nga kalahuya ko nga na mga thoughts,kay ga plano ko nga last ko na ni nga confession kay lapit na ta mag graduate so dapat mag graduate nako simo mag graduate nako sa 4 years nga pagka gusto sa imo (mabal an mo kung ano ko ka yearner kag down bad simoHAHAHHAHAHAHHA) I’m learning to love myself more and learning to accept that you will never fall for someone like me, so that said I will move on from you. It’s ok lang man sa akon, kung di mo ma reciprocate feelings ko i will just admire you from afar. 4 years of unreciprocated feelings should end na. unless........HAHHAHAHHAHA EXCUSE THE WRONG GRAMMARS LANG HA!!!ITS BECAUSE BOBO KO SA ENGLISH SORIIII!!!

Hii J, im sooo sorryyy:(( I miss youu soo baddd I hope you’re doing well take care ily :,)

Babyyyy

the star take my eyss likee ur eyes

Happy birthday for youu baby 🤍 thank you for always loving and patient with me. You always have a special place in my heart, InshaAllah May Allah bless your life and also our relationship until marriage. Me love you always baby ❤️

siahegdgevw

“hay nako, may pag-asa ba ako?”

hei, mungkin kamu gatau aku lebih jauh,tapi aku udah suka kamu dari pas pertama aku memberanikan diri buat first move. bagi aku kamu punya daya tarik sendiri,mungkin kamu juga nahan buat kenal lebih jauh sama aku dan lebih di permukaan doang,maybe cuma interaksi ringan dan itu juga kamu selalu nahan diri kan. aku juga kadang pengen denger suara kamu,tapi kamu bilang kalo kamu tuh ga cukup buat call doang dan harus ketemu. yasir kita sama sama jauh dan mungkin jarak ngalangin,tapi jujur aku naruh perasaan ini ke kamu. aku suka kamu karna yang pertama kamu punya habit yang sehat,lifestyle nya bagus ga kaya cowo2 jaman sekarang dan kamu juga disiplin soal waktu. u re hardworking dan kamu pecinta kucing,itu yang bikin aku interest sama kamu. kamu suka gunain filter topeng kamu dengan muka setengah itu dan pas aku liat entah kenapa aku ngerasa aku lagi deket langsung sama kamu. maaf kalo aku jauh gabisa dijangkau sama kamu. klo takdir mempertemukan juga pasti bakal diketemuin. aku juga gatau jalan karir aku kaya gimana kedepan. for my future lawyer dan budak corporat jakarta selatan, i have crushing on u, kamu selalu pasif dan kamu selalu lempar kode dengan makna tersirat,dan jujur kadang aku gabisa nangkep vibe mu itu. ya mungkin ini yang aku rasain,semoga nanti kamu ngeh sama aku ya:) -dari aku yang suka kucing tapi ga berani punya kucing

Recently all the songs i listen to remind me of you. I don’t know if i want to get over you or keep holding onto the hope that we’ll text again. I don’t know if i miss us or our memories lol. I miss playing genshin with my best friend. we were so young lol, we were doomed to fail. Please text me anytime, i’ll always reply to u in a heartbeat lol. The possibility of you outweighs the actuality of anyone else. I don’t want to let go of that, but i know its for the better to. I promise i won’t call, kenneth. Im sorry and i’ll always be here for u lols

udah jangan badmood, maaf in aku tadi ya. mending kamu tidur besok kita jalan okeii

happy birthday my wife. i hope i made your birthday special just like youuu! i loveee youuu alwayss and forever babi >__<

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hi baby i miss you so much, im in my phase again you left me, so i left everything you the only one that keeping me entertained, just becase you the one who walked away doesnt mean i wanted to leave you, i would have torn my self apart, piece by piece just to make us work, maybe thats the problem, we broke because i was breaking my self for you, baby pede bang hindi ko nalang malaman na meron kanang bago uli? masakit kase baby e pano nako pag nalaman ko pa edi mas lalo pakong lalayo sainyo☹️, hindi na ako nag paparamdam hindi na rin naman ako hinahanap, so at least i found an answer sayo, okay nayun basta masaya ka sa ginagawa mo pero please be a better version kahit wala nako sa tabi mo para pag bawalan ka sa lahat hm? learn to take care baby, kung sasaktan ka lang rin naman nila balik ka nalang sakin baby aalagaan kita higit pa sa sarili ko, bumalik ako sa dati baby☹️, if nakita moko na lumalayo sainyo tas nirereject ko lahat ghinoghost ko kayo minsan, nandito ako sa part na hindi ko dapat iniwan, i still love you pero bawal narin kase pagod kana and naiintindihan ko yan, iloveyousomuch baby take care.☹️

I miss you, please come back

happy world mental health day & happy birthday h+1, nesyaaa! you’re truly the “only friend i need”, not just for me, but reaaally for everyone lucky enough to know you <3 #cie #acikiwir nesyiii im so grateful for you, for your presence always brings warmth and meaning. never a dull moment with you asli, selalu menyenangkan, obrolan daging bermanfaat (giias) di tempat-tempat skena (pinggir jalan tebet). makasih yaaaa udah jadi tempat amaaan (serius bgt lu bukan backburner). maybe you don’t always realize this, but you make people feel safe just by being you. bahkan waktu itu (di GI) gue pernah bilang lu ga ada kurangnya HAHAHAHA PERCAYA DONG SM GWWWW im so so so incredibly happy bisa tumbuh bareng 3 tahun ke belakang ini. gak sabaaar untuk terus melihat jalan cantiknya nesya ke depan. SEMOGA kita terus jadi bagian dari pencapaian satu sama lain, yang besar maupun yang kecil yaaa. i truly hope tahun ini jadi tahun yang penuh hal baik yaaa: skripsi kelar, magang & jadi kartap (hayooo) di tempat terbaik, proker #loh seru, orang-orang yang tulus, momen seruuu di tengah sibuk, & everything in between. + banyakin kegiatan sehat bersama ya!!! semoga semua yang nesya usahain selalu ngasih hasil & kebahagiaan yang nyataaaa. happy birthday again, cewek gokil cewek keren cerdas hebat cewek socially politically aware anjay :> you deserve all kindness & love & sweet & beautiful thingsss. with love, kaiysa

u know I didn’t deserve that pain

Bang roxi, aku suka kam loh, sehat sehat selalu disana abang kesayanganku. Apapun yang kam hadapin, aku menyayangimu sepenuh hatiku. Terimakasih bang sudah ada di hidupku.

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